One Month Recap

When I started on this journey a little over a month ago, I had big hopes. Perhaps more hope than an actual shot at being successful, but I had my target in sight. Although I was optimistic, I tried to stay realistic.

I literally just learned to play this game within the last 3 years. While that may sound like a long time, I had absolutely no clue how to play the game. lol, imagine if someone told you they learned to play freeze tag three years ago and still didn't know all the rules.. haha, poker is a tad bit more difficult than that. There is a saying that it "takes a day to learn poker, but a lifetime to master." That was probably originally used for chess or some other strategy game, but its quite fitting.

So obviously I'm aware that there are literally thousands if not millions of people just like me; who saw some poker on TV, had friends playing it, and finally decided to give it a try - then somehow decided they were awesome at it and can make money at it. Like seriously, if not millions of examples there are a few hundred examples online of players that have gone thru this.

I've always been a gamer of sorts. Usually that title is reserved for players who have played millions of hours of xbox or computer games, but I was always very much into competitive games. Basketball for most of my life, but always loved computer and video games too.

Anyway, I spent that last 3 years just basically learning as much as I can. Watching videos, reading books just trying to learn it all. While my knowledge is definitely not top notch, I felt like I was ready to take this gamble because I felt like I have a good "read." I can't instantaneously call peoples hands outs, or make extremely awesome folds or bluffs because I know my opponents cards - but I have a very good knack for picking up on peoples tendencies and/or idiosyncrasies in their behavior.

So anywho, long story short I am here taking my chance. I began with $1000 playing in a $25 game. After over 30k hands played, I am down $600. While this obviously sucks ass and puts a total dent in any plans I had with money making, the $400 allows me to drop down to the $10 game and still be able to play with full confidence. I have to admit that the "variance," that is the amount of fluxuation in wins and losses is a lot more than I originally planned for. I hope that this is due more to my bad play than actual results. There were literally moments where I would lose $75 then come back $125.

I am trying to hone in on that game which allows me to take $75 losses into $50 wins, because if I can then I know I can slowly begin to eliminate the $75 skids. There is a side to my game that is absolutely beastly and can dominate tables. The weird part is that it is born out of desperation, anger and hunger (from losing all that money previously).

So basically I want to get that winning game going, but without needing excruciatingly painful losses to bring it out. I also want to provide more thought-analysis on some of that hands I post. Right now, I'm just posting them so I don't forget to but then not adding much thought into it.

So onto month 2 of this little experiment I call living from the blinds.

Ciao!